I don't like my attitude lately and I've prayed every day for help with this...and yesterday I got what I asked for...I got an attitude readjustment and not the way I would have expected.
But when you ask God for help and trust He will come through, you open yourself up to almost anything...just saying...
Jesus showed up, just like the Brandon Heath song says, "in disguise". If Jesus knows me at all...and I know He does...then He knows how to get my attention. Perhaps not my favorite way...but again, He knows me...
On the way to work, the passenger side doors of my Honda CRV met up with a very old and oversized van. I think the nice officer called it "an illegal lane change". The other driver was charged. There is about $1900 in damage to my car. Thank God for insurance. Thank God no one was hurt.
And thank God for sending me Jesus in disguise.
At first I was ticked off that my car got hit...and by a van that didn't look like it should be on the road! And to those who know me, I have a reputation to speak my mind. Most of the time without thinking...
Then I saw the driver of the van...yes, I got more ticked off...but I bit my tongue and something calmed down...and for me, that's weird.
The first thing I noticed was the cross he wore around his neck. It wasn't something cheap. It seemed hand crafted and carefully chosen. It was beautiful. And this is all I saw for the rest of our time together. That man has a huge heart for Jesus! I would not know this by looking at his outward appearance, but his insides are beautiful! We talked about life and church and God while the officer did his paper work.
I know he was shaken and the rest of his day was probably a little anxious. I hope it got better for him.
How does this answer my prayer? Well...very simple...I needed an attitude adjustment and I believe I got one. I want to see people the way God sees them...and to be able to love people the way God loves all people. How can I possibly move ahead in my life if I don't understand this concept? So...for me, Jesus revealed something to my heart yesterday. Even now, if I think about the incident, I don't see the physical details of anything. I only feel the joyful imprint the experience left on my heart...and yeah...my car.
Perhaps I should leave the dents as a reminder? No...that's what insurance is for. But just like the dents and scrapes I have on my heart and in my life, I know that God will step in and smooth things over to make me look a little better. Maybe even shiny! He is the ultimate body shop guy!
And, out of all of this, I really want my reputation to speak my mind, to go away....sort of. I will always speak my mind, but I would like it to be not of myself. Like all humans, I am a work in progress until the day I go home. I am so thankful that God keeps after me, with all of my faults, and all I have done. I love knowing I'm his daughter and the best thing of all, I'm forgiven :)
My hope is that God continues to move in my life like He did yesterday! Hopefully, not all situations will be this "expensive". But God knows my heart, and He knows I will need more encounters to keep breaking down whatever He feels needs to be done, in order to get me where He wants me to be.
I felt the need to share this story :) Have a wonderful day!!!